Music Madness – The Veronicas – On Your Side

Hey love-bugs,

First, our colony is growing. Welcome Milly Schmidt!

Second…

I’ve just discovered The Veronicas and I’m not even ashamed to admit it. It happens. There are a lot of artists out there that I know nothing about. Any-who, I watched their video On Your Side written and directed by Ruby Rose and I want to first say, how is it possible for a woman to be that beautiful?

I first got to know who Ruby Rose was from Orange Is The New Black. That’s when all of those memes started circulating about her turning females into lesbians. She’s gorgeous and was great in this video.

It follows what I can only guess is an unhealthy relationship between Rose and one of the ladies in the duo. Rose gets jealous and at one point her girlfriend leaves so she pops a bunch of pills.

That’s what I got from about four minutes.

I do like the song. It’s a really sweet and touching song and one I could listen to more than once.

Before you leave me, I am raising money to get my dog Samson a surgery on his tumors. Anything that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Click the link to donate https://www.gofundme.com/samsons-tumor-biopsy

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Short Story – Who Are You – Chapter Two

Justice rushed home and immediately sat down at the computer. She logged on to see if maxmill1234 was on. He was.

hi beautiful

Her face broke into a grin.

hi max

how was school?

boring as always

don’t i know it. i kept looking down at ur pic

That made her smile grow. She had been right. He had been doing the same thing.

me 2

c? we’re perfect 2gether

i was thinking the same thing 🙂

They were perfect together. if only they could see each other face to face. Everything would be perfect. As it stood, it made her life feel worth something. They spent the entire night talking about their day. She let him know where her and her mother had moved and he promised to one day make his way there so that they could see each other. Hold each other.

It was everything she wanted to hear.If he could find someway to get to her, then she didn’t have to try and convince her mother to take them to him. Her heart swelled about ten sizes, thinking about how much he liked her to want to come be with her in person.

She left the computer that night and went to bed wearing a huge smile. When she woke the next morning it was to her mother’s raised voice. She opened her eyes and looked up at her mother who could have had steam coming out of her ears by the furious expression she wore.

“Get up now!” Angela yelled. She turned and stormed out of the room. Justice climbed out of the bed and walked into the living room. Her mother stood in front of the computer. She raised her hand and pointed at the screen. “You mind telling me what this is?”

Justice’s eyes traveled over to the screen and her mouth dropped open. She must have forgotten to log out of the chat room because there is was on the screen. Along with every message they had shared the night before.

“Uh…uh,” she stammered. What was she going to say? There was nothing that she could say. It was all right there for her mother to see.

“Uh, what?” Angela asked. “What is this?”

“It’s a chat room,” Justice finally said.

“A chat room? What are you doing on a chat room?”

“Me and my friends go on it so that we could keep in touch after we moved.”

Angela turned and looked at the screen. Justice peered over and saw that not all of the message were visible. It was mainly her and maxmill1234 talking about what they had to do the next day and saying good night. Angela put her hands on her hips and let out a breath.

“I don’t want you in this chat room again,” she said calmly.

“How am I supposed to talk to my friends?” she asked in a rush. “I’m only allowed to add family on Facebook and you won’t let me give my friends my new phone number.”

“I’m sorry Juicy, but this is the way things have to be. Now, you can make new friends here. That’s what you should have been doing anyways. I don’t want you in this room again. It’s too dangerous.” Angela signed out of the chat room and shut down the computer. “Now, go get ready for school and I’ll make you some breakfast.”

Justice turned and stormed out of the living room and to her bedroom. If she couldn’t talk to maxmill1234 she didn’t know what she was going to do. He was the only thing keeping her going these days. Without him she was true that she would fall into a bout of depression. He meant everything to her and just like her mother had taken her away from her friends, she had now taken maxmill1234 from her. She got herself ready for school and went about her day. Miserable.

Justice sat on the couch and stared at the dark computer screen. She was so tempted to log on to talk to him. If only for a minute. How would her mother know? She could let him know how horrible her mother was being. He would understand. Maybe even give her a few encouraging words.

That made up her mind.

She needed to talk to him. If only to have him tell her that everything was going to be okay. So she logged on.

i thought you weren’t going 2 make it

i forgot to log off last night and my mom found out

oh no

i’m not supposed 2 b on here

so give me ur number we can text

i’m not supposed 2

i don’t want 2 lose u

She wasn’t supposed to give her number out to anyone but he had said the magic words. She didn’t want to lose him either. Not because her mother was being a crazy person. So, she typed her phone number into the keyboard. A moment later she got a text message.

hey it’s max

Her face lit up. She quickly signed out of the computer and plopped back down on the couch with her phone in hand. She was taking a chance, but she didn’t think her mom would find out about texting Max. She saved his name in her contacts and added the photo that she loved so much of him.

They went a week texting each other and her mom hadn’t questioned her about it. That made Justice sigh in relief. If her mother didn’t know then she wouldn’t have to stop talking to Max.

She sat in he cafeteria at school, laughing at a text from Max. Just as she was about to reply when three girls from her class sat down at her table. Justice looked up confused. They didn’t have trays so they were eating and they were all looking at her. She didn’t know what was going on.

“So,” the girl closest to her said. “I figured that we’ve given you enough time to become comfortable with the school and now I think we should be friends. I’m Rachel.”

Justice didn’t say anything. She knew the girls name. She knew all of their names. She just didn’t understand why they were talking to her. When she failed to speak, Rachel continued.

“I was new here like two years ago and I was so overwhelmed when everyone was trying to be my friend. I just wanted some time to get my barrings, you know? So, when you came I figured we could give you some time.”

“So, no one has been talking to me because you thought I needed time?” Justice finally asked.

“Yeah, I’m smart like that. This is Quinn and Brittany.” She pointed to the other girls.

“How about you come over to my house tonight and then we can get to know each other?”

“Okay,” Justice said.

“Put my number in your phone.”

Justice closed out of the message from Max and opened her contacts. She put Rachel’s number in as she rattled it off. Quinn and Brittany gave her their numbers too. Justice quickly sent them text messages so that they would have her number. Rachel got up and walked away from the table. Quinn quickly followed. Brittany stuck around.

“She can be a lot to handle sometimes,” Brittany said.

“She seems like she’s used to getting what she wants,” Justice commented. She watched as Rachel inserted herself at someone else’s table.

“She is.” Brittany followed her gaze. “But she’s a really good friend. I hope she didn’t scare you off and that you will think about coming by tonight.”

“Yeah. I’ll just text my mom and see if it’s okay.” Justice took out her phone and sent a text to her mom about her new friends. She got a reply back after a few seconds. “She said it was okay.”

“Great,” Brittany smiled. The bell rang to let them know that lunch was over. “I’ll walk with you to class.”

Justice turned her phone off. She kept it off during classes so that she didn’t get in trouble in case it went off. Her phone was dropped into her bag and she stood to empty her tray and follow the crowd out of the cafeteria. Rachel and Quinn caught up to them and the four of them headed to their next class.

After school, Justice rode the bus with Rachel, Quinn and Brittany to Rachel’s house. They lounged around Rachel’s spacious room and talked and laughed. Justice had been hesitant at first, but after her talk with Brittany and spending some time with the girls, she found that she was enjoying herself.

She hadn’t checked her phone once. She hadn’t even turned it on. Justice was started to feel like her old self and it felt could. Not once did her mind wander to Max and what he could have been up to. She sat stretched across Rachel’s bed eating snack and having a good time.

She didn’t know what awaited her when she powered her phone back on.

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TV Talk – Mindhunter – Season One

Hey Love-bugs,

So, I wanted to add an addition to all of this entertainment talk that I do and that’s TV Talk that will happen every Thursday. Basically, I just want to talk about the shows that I’ve just recently watched. I always want to talk about Queer As Folk but can never find anyone, so I thought maybe we can chat about the shows we’re watching.

There will always be a spoiler alert. So, if you haven’t watched a particular show and you are not interested in being spoiled, that’s cool. Just come back after you’ve watched it and we’ll talk.

Okay, now on to this Thursday’s talk…

I watched the first season of Mindhunter on Netflix (Netflix Original show) and I honestly thought I would stop after the first episode. That’s not true. I’m not one to stop something I’ve started, so I knew I would finish it but only to see what would happen. I was not expecting to like this show.

The first episode was so slow and rather boring. I am the type that if I am watching something for the first time I am all in. I don’t want to miss a thing so I am watching it all. If I am more interested in what’s going on on social media and not the show, then we have a problem.

That’s what happened. I was on Instagram and Facebook, not at all caring if I was possibly missing something. But I kept at it and I’m glad I did.

Although the entire pace of the show is rather slow, the premise is really good. The fact that Holden Ford, played by the lovely Jonathan Groff, got so wrapped up in getting into the minds of serial killers that it was hard at times to tell if he didn’t really marvel at them and the crimes they committed. I think that was what held most of my attention. Ford was so focused on his research that he didn’t even realize that he was being sucked in.

To be honest, I was being sucked in to. When His colleagues questioned his methods for getting the killers to open up to him, I found myself defending him and almost getting upset that they couldn’t just back off and let him do his thing.

Crazy right?

I thought he was doing a good job, which proves what, I don’t know.

I also loved that you got to see how everything was developed in the past when solving crimes. Methods that seem so normal to us, because we’ve watched it on TV in either fiction or true crimes shows, were so foreign to them. I think that was why they didn’t take to how he was handling the criminals. It wasn’t how they did things and they liked to be able to clearly tell who was the criminal and who was the crime fighter and Holden Ford blurred the lines.

I wish the pacing would pick up but I am looking forward to the second season.

What did you guys think? Leave a comment and let me know.

Before you leave me, I am raising money to get my dog Samson a surgery on his tumors. Anything that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Click the link to donate https://www.gofundme.com/samsons-tumor-biopsy

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Until the next time… Love, Peace & Chicken Grease.

Book Discussion – Never Kiss A Stranger – Never Series – Book One

Hey Lovebugs,

I couldn’t sleep so I got to reading and I’m not mad about it.

As always, spoilers are a strong possibility, so if you haven’t had the chance to read this book, click out, read it and come back and tell me what you thought.

Kindle –

Paperback –

Now onto the discussion…

I really liked this book. Addison doesn’t do relationships. She lonely and once a year decides to have a one night stand. Which is how she met Wilder, who is only interested in one night stands. Things get interesting after that one night though because Wilder enjoyed himself so much that he wants to do it again. Addison is hesitant at first because she doesn’t want feeling to get involved but she soon agrees to a standing date every Friday where they both can relieve some stress. This is a romance however so feelings are bound to become involved.

Wilder soon become obsessed with her, even going as far as to break her rules, going out to dinner, sleeping over and getting to know each other.

I loved the twist that came in the story when they turned out to be stepsiblings after their parents got secretly married.I felt for poor Wilder because the woman he loved was taken from him. Of course, they sleep together several times even after this discovery is made. I was rooting for them and was so happy when they finally got to be together after their parents divorced.

I just thought that not only was this book sexy but it was sweet as well. Four stars from me.

What did you guys think? Let me know in the comments.

The next book up for discussion is…

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Paperback –

Before you leave me, I am raising money to get my dog Samson a surgery on his tumors. Anything that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Click the link to donate https://www.gofundme.com/samsons-tumor-biopsy

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Music Madness Mondays

Hey love-bugs,

So, I love music. Music has a way of speaking to your soul. Plus, it’s really good to write too (I’m actually listening to a playlist right now).

That is why am I going to start bringing you guys Music Madness every Monday.

I am trying to bring a little order to this crazy blog of mine and since I love entertainment and I’m trying to have a career in it, I figured I could bring you my thoughts on different entertainment while organizing this blog.

I hope you guys always join in on the conversation.

Before you leave me, I am raising money to get my dog Samson a surgery on his tumors. Anything that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Click the link to donate https://www.gofundme.com/samsons-tumor-biopsy

Another thing, if you would like to become a patron and help me release my second book click the link. You can pledge as little as $1 http://www.patreon.com/TaQuandaCreates

Until the next time… Love, Peace & Chicken Grease.

Short Story – Who Are You – Chapter One

Fourteen year old Justice McCray walked into the small apartment she shared with her mother. She knew that her mother wasn’t home. She hardly ever was. Angela McCray worked. A lot. Justice was alone more time than not.

It wouldn’t have been a big deal except she was alone.

They had fled the only place that Justice had called home after her mother’s messy breakup. That meant Justice knew no one. She had to be the new girl in school for the first time in her life and she didn’t like it. She had never had the easiest time making friends but at least at her old school she had her small group of friends. In this new place, she had no one.

Not ever her mother because of how much she worked.

Nope. Justice was alone.

She dropped her book bag on the floor my the computer in the living room and went to the kitchen to scrounge up something to eat. There was a note stuck to the fridge from her mother. I’ll be home late Juicy. Don’t wait up for me. Be sure to eat something. XOXO Mama It was nothing new. Justice took the note from the fridge and crumbled it in her hands before dropping it into the trashcan. She yanked open the refrigerator and removed the fixings for a bologna sandwich. She made her sandwich and poured a large glass of soda.

Justice carried her midday snack into the living room and sat down at the computer logging it on. While the computer booted up, she ate her sandwich. She had agreed to login to a chat room to stay in touch with her friends. Her mom monitored her Facebook off and on, so the chat room was better for them to talk about whatever they wanted with the fear of prying eyes from parents.

She logged into the chat room and saw that her friends hadn’t signed on yet. She grabbed her homework to get started while she waited. Usernames started pinging into the room.

Justice split her focus between her friends and her homework. It was mindless chitchat. Catching her up on what was going in her absence. Someone was failing. Someone was had gotten their first kiss. It all seemed trivial but it was everything she was missing out on and it made her sad.

Justice finished up her homework and put everything back into her bag. She looked at the screen and saw her friends chatting with a username she didn’t recognize. maxmill1234

Maxmill1234 and her best friend were arguing about whether or not wanting to join the cheerleading team was stupid or not. She agreed with Maxmill1234 that it was stupid and at one point her best friend would have too. She guessed because she was no longer there, her friend wanted to try new things. Justice chose not to add her two sense because she didn’t want to upset anyone, so instead she let them know that she had to sign off and kicked out of the chat room for the night.

The next day was just like the day before. Justice got home from school. Her mother was gone. She grabbed something to eat. Sat down at the computer and logged into the chat room and did her homework. maxmill1234 made another appearance.

Justice found some of the things he said kind of funny but she could see that her friends did agree. Who is this guy? repeated as everyone questioned who the new guy was. He didn’t respond. He didn’t let them know who he was. He signed off. Justice soon followed and instead watched TV before going to bed.

Justice felt like her life was on repeat but it just was the way things were. She didn’t her homework at the computer and looked up when an unfamiliar ding sounded through the speakers. Private message: maxmill1234 Justice eyebrows scrunched up. She didn’t know who the kid was or why he was messaging her privately.

So why was she clicking on the message?

Hi.

That was it.

Justice typed hello and closed the message, going back to her homework. ding

you’re not talking much tonight

She let him know that she was doing homework and went back to it. She didn’t get another ding that night.

The forth night Justice didn’t log out of the chat room but she wasn’t participating either. Homework was done and she was watching TV. ding She got up from the couch and sat down at the computer. Private message: maxmill1234 She clicked on the message.

can u talk?

She bite the inside of her cheek as she contemplated replying. Sure she was free to talk but did she want to? She didn’t know who the kid was.

ding

sorry. bye

No. I can talk, she caught herself typing before she could stop herself.

cool 🙂

She smiled.

how was school?

Before she could stop herself, she let him know everything.

such a drag. i miss my own school. nobody talks to me here. i hate it here. wish i could come home. u?

ding

same here. i just moved and i hate it. i know no one.

Justice smiled. She felt like they were kindred spirits. Someone else knew how hard it was to try and fit in to a new place. She wasn’t so alone after all.

ding

wanna be friends

Her smile grew wider. No, they weren’t in the same place and they didn’t really know each other. But she had a feeling that they could get each other through a really tough time.

sure.

🙂

They started a friendship from there. Justice went weeks without speaking to anyone at school and barely seeing her mother, but maxmill1234 was always there. He listened to her complain about how crappy life was and she did the same for him.

After a while, she wasn’t too worried about the fact that she hadn’t made any friends at her new school. She had even stopped talking to her friends in the chat room, only logging on so that she could talk to him. It was what got her through her day and her nights. He was so sweet to her that it did’t matter that they had never met face to face before.

i wish i could see you

me too.

She bit the inside of her cheek and sat back in the chair. Before she could change her mind, she clicked on a photo that was saved to the computer and uploaded it to the message.

i knew you would be pretty

Her cheeks started to hurt from the smile that was plastered to her face. She wanted to see him too but she didn’t know if she had the courage to ask for one. She didn’t have to. A photo message came through of a cute boy about fourteen or fifteen years old. He had sandy brown hair, brown eyes and a cute smile.

that’s a really good picture.

not as good as urs

She couldn’t stop herself from blushing. Not only was he super sweet but he was super cute as well.

i pray that one day we get to meet. do u pray that?

Did she?

yeah. I pray that we get to meet someday.

i’m gonna show this picture around and tell everyone i have the prettiest girlfriend

Girlfriend? Did she want to be his girlfriend? The fact that she couldn’t wipe the smile from her face, told her yes. Yes. She wanted to be his girlfriend and she did pray that they could meet face to face. Maybe even share a kiss. Her first kiss. That’s what she wanted. She wanted him to be her first kiss.

okay…boyfriend

🙂

They stayed up all night talking. Justice’s mom shook her awake at the computer, the screen black. She wiped the sleep from her eyes and thanked her lucky stars that her mom couldn’t see that she had been in a chat room. She logged off and shut the computer down and got ready for school.

Justice had sent the photo of maxmill1234 to her photo. During lunch, while she ate the almost edible fish sticks, she stared at his picture. She couldn’t believe that she had been so lucky. To find such a cute guy and completely by accident. She wondered if he was thinking about her as well. If he was looking down at her photo that very second.

They were so alike and had a lot of things in common, she was almost sure that he was. Se wanted to ask him when she got home but she didn’t want it to come across wrong. Instead, she allowed herself to daydream. About what it would be like when they finally got to meet face to face.

Maybe when school ended she could convince her mom to take some time off to go on a trip. Justice would go wherever he was. She just wanted to see him.

Short Story – Committed – Chapter Five

Natalia walked into her mother’s house and looked around. She was told to come over but she didn’t see anyone. She made her way to the back of the house and found everyone outside in the yard. Everyone. Her father and her sisters guys were in attendance. She slid the door opened and stepped on the porch. Natima noticed her first and rose from her seat and crossed the yard to her. She stopped in front of her with a small smile on her face.

“I’m glad you came.”

“I wouldn’t have if I had known,” Natalia said.

“Come with me.” Natima stepped into the house. Natalia reluctantly followed her, closing the door behind her. She followed Natima into the living room. “Sit.” Natalia sat down beside her mother on the couch. “I get how pissed off you are.”

“Do you really? Did grandma ever interfere in your life?”

“How do you think I met your father?” Natalia looked up shocked. “Oh, yes. I was what you would call a party girl. I was enjoying my early twenties and your grandmother met this “sweet young man” who was so nice to her at church that she invited him over from Sunday dinner and that was all it took. I later found out that she invited him in the hopes that I would want to give up my party girl ways and try something with some “substance”. Plus, she thought he was just my type.”

“Absent is your type?” Natalia asked her eyebrows arched.

“We were young Tal. Neither one of us knew what it meant to be parents.”

“Yeah, but you stayed.”

“Because you’re my kids.”

“And we’re not his?”

“You know, everything isn’t always so white and black. People make mistakes Natalia. They also learn from them. That is all Nate is trying to do. You could learn a little forgiveness. Now if you can’t show a little respect to your father, then you can leave.”

Natima stood and moved through the house heading back outside. Natalia sunk back into the couch cushions and let out a heavy sigh. Forgiveness was a hell of a thing. One that she didn’t know if she had the ability to do. She looked up at the sound of heels clinking across the floor. Natanya and Natasha stood in the door. They looked at her with understanding in their eyes and walked over to her. They each held out a hand for her to take.

Natalia took their hands and they helped her to her feet, walking through the house hand in hand. They stopped on the back porch and looked out at the people in the yard.

“So, whose who?” Natalia asked.

“Eric is the one talking to dad,” Natasha said.

“That doesn’t bother you?”

“He was looking for a location for his store and dad being the realtor that he is, showed him the vacant spot next to me and he took it.”

“Hmm.”

“And Mike is talking to Kat,” Natanya said. “Before you ask, we talked and mommy mentioned to dad that I was looked for a contractor and dad had her refer him to me.”

“He’s hot,” Natalia commented.

“Not sexiest man alive?” Natanya asked.

Natalia cleared and throat and fidgeted on the spot. She noticed the way Mike looked over at Natanya and his entire face lit up. She glanced over at her sister and saw that she too was wearing a face breaking grin. Without saying so much as “be right back,” Natanya stepped off of the porch and walked over to where Kat and Mike were talking. He didn’t miss a beat in his conversation with their cousin as he slid his arm around Natanya’s waist and pulled her taut to his body. Natanya slipped her arm around his shoulder and placed her free hand on his chest snuggling close.

“Hey, why don’t you come meet Eric? Mike too?” Natasha asked. She looked over at Natalia with a worried glance.

“In a minute. You go ahead,” Natalia said. She crossed her arms over her chest and balanced on the balls of her shoes before teetering back on the heels.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah.”

Natasha rubbed her hand soothingly down Natalia’s arm before walking down the steps of the porch and crossing the yard over to Eric. He held his arm out to her and she stepped into his embrace snuggling up into his side. Natalia watched them slightly envious. Her eyes fell on her father and she saw that he was looking at her. They stared at each other for a moment before Natalie turned and re-entered the house.

She stood in the living room looking out the large picture window her arms crossed. She didn’t need to turn around to know who had just entered the room. She stood there for a moment not saying a word and he didn’t speak either. Finally she broke the silence.

“My life was perfectly fine before you stuck your nose where it didn’t belong.” She continued looking out the window, not ready to turn around and face him.

“Natalia, I didn’t mean to hurt you,” Nathan said, his voice low.

“But you did,” she said. Natalia slowly turned around to face her father. Tears fell silently down her cheeks. “That’s what you do. You hurt the people you claim to love. Do you want to know when I realized that?”

Nathan didn’t speak. He didn’t want to interrupt her and upset her more. He let her talk and get everything off of her chest.

“It wasn’t when I was five and you left and didn’t tell us when you were coming back,” she said. “It wasn’t the year I spent waiting up wondering if you were going to walk through the door. It wasn’t even when I was ten and you came back and promised that things were going to be better and then you took off again.” The tears fell steadily from her eyes and she didn’t make an attempt to wipe them away.

“It was when I was sixteen. You moved back to town and I saw you a week before my birthday. I was so excited about having a party, but what I was most excited about you being there. The birthday in years. You promised you would be there. But you weren’t. You never showed up.” She finally wiped her hand angrily across her face. “So I went by your house, but before I could get close enough, I saw you in a moving truck.

“I thought you left town but then I saw you a week later when I was out with friends. You were having lunch. With Kat. On her birthday.”

Nathan dropped his head. He remembered clearly the time Natalia was talking about. It was a low point for him. “Natalia, I-” he tried.

“No!” she cut him off. “We I saw you I knew. I finally got what you were saying. You weren’t going to be a part of my life. But you broke your promise! And you made me break mine! I promised myself that I would never let another man hurt me the way you did, but he’s in here!” She jabbed a finger at her heart. “He’s in here and I can’t get him out. I don’t want to feel like this.” Natalia sobbed. “Please. I don’t want to feel like this.” Natalia sank down to the floor crying. “Please, just get him out,” she begged. “Please, daddy. Please.”

Nathan moved and sank to the floor beside her. He held her in his arms while she cried and tried to sooth her, running his hand up and down her back. He lifted her head, her tears falling faster, her shoulders rising and falling with each sob that racked her body. He wiped the tears a way and held her head in his hands so that she looked at him.

“I. Am. So. Sorry.” he said enunciating each word. “The pain that I’ve caused you. I’m sorry. I didn’t want you to close yourself off from love. That’s why I did what I did, but I would take it back if I could if it would ease your pain. Natalia, I’m sorry.”

She lowered her head and he cradled her against his chest and rocked her while she cried.

**

Natalia stepped off the elevator on her floor but instead of turning towards her apartment, she walked down to Chris’. She stopped outside the closed door and pressed her ear against it listening for any movement inside. She didn’t hear any so she straightened and started to walk away but stopped. She turned back and stopped in front of the door. Natalia raised her hand to knock but didn’t touch the door. What was she going to say to him? She lowered her hand and stared at the door as if it would just open or she would get a sign as to what she should do next.

She took a deep breath and raised her hand again only to drop it. She knew she was acting silly and shook her head chastising herself. Another deep breath and she raised her hand but couldn’t make herself knock.

“You going to knock or just stand there all night?”

Natalia lowered her hand and closed her eyes. Chris stood just inside the door leading to the roof.

“They should really put some sort of alarm on that door,” she said. “How long have you been standing there?”

“Long enough,” he said walking towards her. She had yet to turn and face him. He heard her let out a shaky sigh. “You don’t get embarrassed though, so it’s cool.” He was teasing her.

“Then why does my face suddenly feel hot?”

Chris unlocked the door and stood back, “Coming in?”

She walked past him, never looking up and breezed into the apartment. Her heels clinked along the tiled floor as she walked over to the window to stare out. It was the only place she could look. Chris shut the door and walked in, perching on the arm of the couch. They didn’t speak.

“Why did you ask me out?” she finally asked.

“What do you mean?”

“That first day. When we went to go get pizza. Why did you ask me out?”

“Honestly?”

“Yeah,” she said. She glanced over her shoulder at him.

“I was hungry and didn’t really want to eat alone,” he said.

“So, it wasn’t in some sneaky attempt to get me to lower my guard and fall for you?” She turned fully to face him, crossing her arms protectively.

“Do you really want the truth?”

“No, I want you to lie to me Chris<' she said sarcastically. "Yes, I want the truth."

"Natalia, I wasn't checking for you," he said and shrugged his shoulders.

"Gay," she said and rolled her eyes.

"I'm not gay," he said standing and moving towards her. "I wasn't checking for you because I didn't think you were my type. I thought you were too brash for my taste." He stopped in front of her, pinning her against the window. "But I get it. Why those other guys fell for you. You don't make it easy not to."

Natalia giggled.

"What?" Chris asked, tilting his head.

"You should like those corny romance novels Tasha reads."

"I do, do I?"

"Yeah," she said in a hushed tone. "Got any other corny things you want to say?"

"Just one." Chris placed his finger under her chin and tilted her head up. He brought his lips down to meet hers in a soft kiss. He placed soft kisses on her lips before kissing her like he would die if he didn't.

When they came up for air, Natalia said, "Am I finally going to get laid?" and laughed. Chris laughed to and wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her close to him before bringing his lips crashing down on hers.

Natalia didn't think she had ever been kissed like that before. With so much love. She could feel his heart beating against her chest, matching hers beat for beat. She found herself wanting to lift one leg the way they did in movies but stopped herself.

Even that was too cheesy for her.

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